Unbreakable (Highlands Forever Book 1) Page 11

  “I understand, but a miserable union will destroy a man’s house.”

  Alex’s eyes sparkled with mischief. “This house is built upon rock.” He held his fist up, symbolizing the erection beneath his tartan. “I willna deny the lass anything, Petro. She will feel the extent of my passion—the years I’ve tried to extinguish it with the empty kisses of foreign women.”

  Though his head was swimming with hot memories about Keely, Alex refused to surrender to the tender feelings in his heart. Aye, he cared—more than he should. A tiny ember of what he used to feel for the lass had ignited inside him the day he encountered her in the great hall for the first time—how she came forward and called his name in front of his captains and tenants. That fierceness in her eyes, the willingness to aid his cause. The Oliphants were worthy allies. But he couldna trust her. She’d broken his heart. She’d forsaken her own father by running away.

  If he let his guard down, she’d find a way inside his mind and heart—stealing his very soul. The fact that she still had that kind of power over him represented something he dinna want to think about, ever.

  “What are you afraid of, Alex?”

  The question caused Alex to set his empty cup on the mantle. He rested his palm against the stone wall and stared into the flames. Drinking himself numb was futile. Nothing could erase the past—even temporarily. Nay—his feelings were too intense to forget—too real. He’d promised himself that he’d shield the lass from harm, but when it came to what existed between them outside the bedchamber, she deserved a bitter portion—to feel what he’d felt, to suffer as he had.

  “I fear nothing, and wish to speak of this no more. Go and pick a lass to dance with and leave me in peace.”

  That caused his friend to raise a brow. “You changed your mind about me wooing the maids?”

  “I canna forbid ye from bedding a lass. But I give ye fair warning … get one with child, and ye will find yerself standing before Father Michael as quickly as I did.”

  Petro’s gaze searched the crowd. “The redheaded girl…”

  “Which one?”

  He gestured toward the doorway which opened into the kitchens. “The buxom one.”

  “Ye’ve a liking for Glenna. Her sire tragically died at my brother’s side.”

  “I am sorry for the loss.”

  “As am I. But Glenna and her sister Erin will need husbands to provide for them.”

  “I am not opposed to the idea of marriage, Alex.”

  “Then pursue the lass with my blessing.”

  “She will need time to mourn the loss of her father.”

  “Glenna needs comfort.”

  “As do you,” his friend reminded him.

  “Is every word I say an opportunity for ye to use it against me?”

  “Only if it serves a purpose.”

  “Then maybe I should carve yer tongue out.”

  The both laughed. Alex appreciated the blunt way Petro expressed himself. That’s why he made the best adviser and friend.

  Nasim approached with Keely, then bowed. “Thank you for the honor of dancing with your wife.”

  Alex nodded. “Bring yer brothers to the high table, Nasim. I have news to share.”

  “I will get them.” Nasim bowed once more and departed.

  “If you will excuse me, Lady Keely, Alex, I wish to speak with someone,” Petro said.

  Alex gave his friend a knowing smile. Glenna was standing at a nearby table. If she kept his friend occupied, it would spare Alex from getting more lectures.

  “Did ye enjoy the music?” Alex asked his wife.

  “Aye—all three brothers are excellent dancers and pleasant to speak with.” Keely paused. “Is it true, Alex?’

  “What, lass?”

  “The brothers are yer slaves?’

  “Aye.”

  “B-but…”

  “Doona judge me for keeping the ways of foreigners when I lived in their land.”

  “It goes against everything we Scots believe in. The Almighty endowed all men with certain attributes—being a slave isna one of them.”

  “Yer concern is appreciated but unwarranted.”

  Her look told him she’d never agree.

  Alex sighed at the need to further explain himself. “Are we not slaves to the crown? From the poorest tenant to the highest chieftain?”

  She considered it. “In a way. We are the king’s subjects.”

  “It means the same thing, lass. And if ye must know, I spared the life of their father when I was paid to kill him. He waged war against a rival lord and lost. Twas left to my discretion to do with his life as I wished. As I raised my sword, Lord Kalil made an offer I couldna refuse. His three eldest sons in exchange for his life. Such an offer is only made to an enemy a man respects.”

  “That’s a terrible fate for his sons.”

  “Again, doona judge their ways by our own. They are an ancient race. And when such an arrangement is made, they must be treated in a certain way—as sons of a prince.”

  “They are princes?”

  “Aye. They fight with me and receive an equal portion of the rewards we gain by defeating our enemies. The gifts offered to ye were from their own wealth. Slaves have certain rights, Keely, regardless of their high or low birth.”

  “I am sorry for misjudging ye without knowing the whole truth.”

  Alex escorted his wife back to the high table where Nasim and his brothers waited. Once seated, Alex called for silence.

  “In Constantinople, on a man’s wedding day, he is expected to share his good fortune. A tradition not too far from our own. So, on this momentous occasion, I will keep this practice alive.”

  The crowd cheered and raised their cups.

  Alex did the same, taking a drink of ale. “Cyrus, Kuresh, and Nasim, sons of Kalil, princes in their own right, ye have served me well.”

  The brothers raised their cups. “We salute you, Laird Alexander.”

  “Such loyalty and bravery deserve freedom,” Alex said.

  “Freedom?” Cyrus asked quietly. “What do you mean?”

  Alex leaned across the table. “Yer father’s debt to me is satisfied. Walk among men again as an equal.”

  “All of us?” Nasim asked.

  “Aye.”

  “What if we wish to serve you still?” Kuresh asked.

  “Then I willna send ye away. Ye will be appointed to my personal guard and honored as a MacKay.”

  “A MacKay?” Kuresh asked. “You wish me to take yer surname?”

  “If ye choose to stay here, aye. Ye canna live in the past,” Alex said, relying on the wise words of his scholar. “There is time to consider yer futures, to make a choice.”

  The brothers bowed.

  “Any man who questions my decision and mistreats ye, will feel my rage as Angus did when he laid hands on my bride.”

  The guests cheered and called out the brothers’ names.

  “Today marks a new beginning for Clan MacKay. I wish my father and brother were here to celebrate with us.” Alex turned to Keely. “And now, if ye doona mind, I will take my bride abovestairs.”

  Before she could protest, Alex scooped her up and made his way through the happy throng.

  “God’s blessings,” some called.

  “Bolt the door from the inside and out,” a man warned. “The lass might run away.”

  “Be at peace, Laird Alexander, and get Lady Keely with child, that will keep her a MacKay.”

  Though he appreciated the well wishes, the words stung his pride. The only thing that would keep his young wife in their bed was him. She had been left a maiden too long and dinna know her rightful place, dinna understand what being a wife meant.

  Keely wrapped her arms around his neck.

  “Are ye afraid, lass?”

  “Nay.” She peeked up at him. “Are ye?”

  He stopped mid-stair and laughed. “Ye’ll never give me peace, Keely. For almost every word out of yer pretty mouth surprises me.”
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br />   “Blame my father, he taught me everything I know.”

  Alex dinna want her to lose the fire in her belly. Even though he complained about her being stubborn and disobedient, he’d have grown bored with a submissive wife. And that fighting spirit would eventually win the hearts of Clan MacKay back. Keely dinna face an easy future, but he knew she would rise above the challenges.

  “After tonight, lass, there will be no more confusion left between us, I promise.” He pushed the bedchamber door open with the toe of his boot.

  *

  Once she and Alex were inside, he barred the door, then turned to her. “Later, men will be posted outside the door and below, in case ye’d be foolish enough to jump out of the window.”

  She lifted her chin. “Ye still have no faith in me?” She couldna blame him for being overly cautious. The past still weighed heavily on them both. In time she’d prove herself trustworthy again.

  Alex walked to the hearth. He stoked the fire with a metal poker. “I know ye well, Keely. That alone gives me every right to be suspicious. But I am willing to set our differences aside and start our lives together. There are many things I like about ye.”

  She sighed, taking in the surroundings, including the enormous bed she was sure generations of MacKay lairds and their ladies had slept in. Surely it was large enough to accommodate Alex and three or four women at one time. She frowned at the thought.

  “Just then,” Alex pointed out, “a shadow crossed yer face. Why?”

  “Tis nothing.”

  “Tell me at once,” he demanded.

  “A foolish notion, nothing more.”

  “I will decide what’s foolish, lass.”

  “The bed…”

  Alex gazed at it. “Is it not to yer liking?”

  “It will serve,” she said.

  “Keely…”

  “Perhaps ye, me, and the rest of yer women.”

  Alex hung the poker on its hook, then crossed the room to where she stood.

  “I have six concubines, Keely.”

  She pivoted away from him and drew closer to the bed, imagining eight bodies tucked beneath the sheets and furs. “I’m afraid it will be a rather tight fit, milord.”

  “What?”

  “Can ye no picture it? Look closely.”

  Alex stood next to her.

  “Ye would surely prefer the middle. And I will sleep to yer right, as is my proper place, and Layla, yer favorite concubine, will sleep to yer left. I’m afraid the rest will have to fight for their positions. I doona want the responsibility of keeping track of such things.”

  Alex gaped at her. “Keely…”

  “I am not happy about it, Alex. I have no choice but to accept the unnatural cravings ye developed in that strange land.”

  “Keely.”

  “Is Layla beautiful?”

  “She is nothing next to ye.”

  “What about the… What did ye say?”

  “Layla pales in comparison to ye, Keely. All of them do.”

  Her heart raced at the rare compliment from Alex. “I-I…”

  Alex reached for her hands, cradling them in his. “Did ye not listen to the vow I took belowstairs? Pledging my body to ye?”

  “Of course I did. How many men have spoken the same words at their wedding only to break their sacred vow soon after? If I had a choice, I wouldna be here, we wouldna be here.” She started to panic, fear of the unknown growing inside her. How could she trust Alex? It seemed they shared common concerns. And a marriage built on anything but trust was doomed, was it not? “Tis not too late to send me back to my father.” She couldna hide the tears in her eyes. “Please…”

  Alex frowned and released her hands. “Keely. Ye disappoint me greatly. Where is the brave woman I married, the one who dinna stumble over her words in front of Father Michael, who accepted her future as my wife?”

  “Ye dinna give me a choice!”

  “Aye, I did.”

  “When?”

  “Did anyone force ye into that gown? Make ye stand in front of the priest and my captains? Ye spoke the words, lass—freely.”

  Keely covered her face with both hands, struggling to take a steady breath. “Ye threatened me, Alex. Made it abundantly clear that I had no choice but to marry the man ye’d chosen for me. I assumed it was Jamie, not ye.”

  “Would ye prefer my cousin?” His eyes narrowed.

  “Alex! Why are ye playing games with me? Twisting my words—yer words? So much has happened these last few days. So much pain and death. How could I think clearly?”

  “Lass,” he started. “Whether ye know it or not, our fates were sealed long ago. The day we pledged ourselves to one another, was the day we were legally bound.”

  “What are ye saying?”

  “Tis known as consent—like handfasting. Though we had no witnesses, we spoke the words before God. Yer marriage to John was invalid.”

  “I doona believe it.” Feeling faint, she sat on the edge of the mattress, her slippered feet dangling over the floor.

  “I dinna accept it very easily either, lass. But Petro is gifted in many ways. He understands law. If ye doubt my word, ye are welcome to summon him to this chamber and question him thoroughly.”

  “Now?”

  “Aye.”

  She hugged herself, the weight of all these complications, of this new and unknown world, bearing down on her. She felt like she wanted to vomit. “There is no need. I’ve never known ye to be a liar, Alex.” She met his gaze. “This is a cruel outcome for both of us, I think.”

  “Cruel?” he repeated. “Unfair, maybe. But not cruel.”

  “Ye had other plans for yer future, as did I. Hopes and dreams.”

  “Aye.” He looked about the chamber. “Never did I think to come back here to serve as laird. Only to confront my brother for his betrayal.”

  “But I thought…”

  “Aye, lass. And to give him gold as I said before. I may find it difficult to forgive him for marrying ye, but he’s still a MacKay, still my only brother.”

  His words only added to her burden. She had played a part in that betrayal, even if her sire and Laird MacKay, Alex’s father, had left her with no choice but to marry John. “Will ye ever forgive me?”

  “Ye doona want to hear my answer, Keely.”

  “But I do.”

  Their gazes locked. His green eyes were so intense and cold.

  “Forgiveness. Trust. Love. Tenderness. None of these things are necessary to have a successful marriage.”

  “Ye are very wrong.”

  “Nay, I am not.”

  “Aye, ye are,” she countered. Convincing Alex of anything seemed impossible, but it dinna mean she had to accept his heartless idea of marriage.

  He released a mirthless laugh that cut through her. “This isna a fairytale, Keely.”

  He was strong. He was brave. He was handsome. And he was Laird MacKay now. But he wasna happy. Maybe if she dedicated her time to changing his mind…

  “Shall I show ye what makes a fruitful match?”

  Did she have a choice in the matter?

  Before she could answer, Alex stepped between her legs, towering over her, the passion in his expression unmistakable. She held her breath as he cradled her face between his big hands and tilted her head upward. He lowered his lips to hers, gently kissing her quivering mouth. The contact made her tingle all over. But her instinctual defenses made her keep her lips tightly sealed. One kiss from him could change everything. And she couldna hold her breath much longer!

  He chuckled and drew back. “Is this yer idea of a kiss, Keely?”

  “I-I…”

  As soon as she spoke, he struck, his masculine scent and taste consuming her as his tongue swept over hers. His hand slipped underneath her hair to her nape and locked her in place. And against her better judgment, she returned that kiss with equal hunger—with desperate need to be wanted. Five long years hadn’t extinguished her inner fire for Alex. With one flick of his tong
ue, one touch, she transformed into the wanton maiden she used to be whenever he was close. Only this time, the happiness that bubbled up inside her in the past was sadly gone.

  She blamed her nerves—or too much wine—or maybe this was her future. A loveless marriage built on raw lust. A man dinna need to love a woman to get her with child.

  “Keely,” he whispered, as he gently urged her to lie back on the bed.

  She dinna resist, and he climbed atop her, his knees planted on either side of her body. She gazed up at him, a new wave of emotions assailing her, fear and fascination causing her heart to race. He had noble features and would sire beautiful children. Physically beautiful, but with hearts of stone…

  The spell was broken, and Keely struggled to push him off her. “Away from me,” she demanded.

  It did little good; he dinna move.

  “Did ye hear me?”

  “Aye.” He folded his arms across his chest.

  “Ye canna keep me here!”

  He threw his head back and laughed deeply—irritatingly so. “Ye’re my wife, lass, I can do whatever I wish with ye. And in case ye forgot, that door is barred from the inside and out. We are stuck here together.”

  Chapter Fourteen

  The more she denied and fought against their mutual hunger, the more desirable his new wife became. Color suffused Keely’s lovely cheeks, and those damnable blue eyes reminded him of the burning sun over the desert. He had no intention of forcing her or hurting her—but she must understand what was going to happen tonight. The marriage must be consummated. He couldna live two lives—his heart in Constantinople and his mind in the Highlands. Nay, he needed to become her husband in every way in order to find the anchor necessary to keep him in Scotland. His ship was still conveniently located only a short ride away, ready to sail wherever he commanded.

  “Ye’re heavier than a blasted stone,” she complained. “Get off me.”

  Alex had been very careful to balance most of his weight on his knees. She was searching for any excuse to get rid of him. “Nay.”

  She sighed. “What if I fall asleep with ye sitting there?”

  “Then I will make special use of the time.”

  “What?” She sat up, leaning on her elbows.